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Thursday, November 8th, 2007
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9:25 pm
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So, apparently my ex will beat me up, Drake will pimp me, Kona will molest me, I'll be dating my real Mate, one of my best friends will be my arch-nemesis, and I'll be cheating off one of the more intellegent people I know.
And of course I'll die by a dull pencil, and have a slim chance of graduating...
This quiz turned out rather ironic in some aspects XD
current mood:  amused
current music: Austin Powers playing in background
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| Friday, August 24th, 2007
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2:03 pm
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| 1. | Ammy | | | n-Bad/Good Girl
Feminine
Description-
1. A female who is both good and bad at the same time.
2. A person who is good at times and bad at other times.
3. A girl-next door but also a partygirl
That girl is such a Ammy. She volunteers all the time, but she loves bending the law.
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Haha, Urban Dictionary cracks me up sometimes.
I'm sure Tyler will get a kick out of this.
current mood: amused
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| Friday, July 20th, 2007
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1:23 pm - Bahahaha, FTW!
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Your Score: Ceiling Cat44% Affectionate, 28% Excitable, 33% HungryYou are a master of stealth. They never see you coming. But you always see them coming. HEY-O!
To see all possible results, checka dis. |
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| Thursday, June 28th, 2007
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5:11 pm
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There seems to be a lot of drama these days, everywhere I look...
Someone's fighting here, those people are hurt there, someone's jobless here, etc etc... It seems to be a very high point for stress these days.
I don't know what it is. Maybe its the weather, maybe its society, maybe its just a contagious thingamajig floating around the air that's crawling into people's brain, like those children's stories of earwigs, and planting cabbages in our frontal lobes, causing general annoyance and irritability.
Whatever it may be, everyone seems to be up in arms about many things these days. Often with good reasons too, but of course one person's good reasons for getting upset, trigger another person's, and it spreads till everyone has been tainted.
Sure I've got my own crap... almost lost one of the most important things in my life... couldn't put food on the table or pay bills... been struggling through doctors visits, government appointments, and medications much to my own dismay over the past few months, trying to figure things out.
But it doesn't matter.
Life keeps going, people move on... Some are there for you, some never really understand you, some attack you for something you didn't realize or they didn't understand, and some pass you by without a second glance.
I'm two sided. Both a solitary creature, and a social one... I like to be social, but if I find myself to cause more harm than good, then I will step away and leave people alone... I will move on and be solitary so they can live their life without my interference.
I've been an interference, I was for many years, and only contributed to a lot of the pain that circled around, since being yet another person to fret and plan around seemed to add more stress. But some benefited from my stepping aside, so in the end it was for the best. Besides, my life was not my own, my life was to care for another who needed me, and everything in my life required revolving around that...
Interpret this how you will, I don't really care... if anyone actually reads this that is. I suppose it will most likely be misinterpretted, but that's life and the nature of human communication.
current mood:  indifferent
current music: Paula Abdul - Straight Up
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| Saturday, June 9th, 2007
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12:57 am
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Bahahaha... Why is that so strangely fitting? XD
current mood: amused
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(I've gotten 3 bites so far - bite me)
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| Friday, June 1st, 2007
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5:12 pm
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I should've done this private posting thing more often
Yay, the ability to scream, cry and curse and say what I've desperately needed to say, without actually saying it, and ruining everything...
huzzah
current mood:  frustrated
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(I've gotten 9 bites so far - bite me)
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| Thursday, May 31st, 2007
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9:08 pm
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Just letting everyone who watches me on here know, I've essentially given up on using this for any public journal entries.
You may one day see a random entry or something, but in general all my public posts can be found in my DeviantArt Journal.
http://tasimmet.deviantart.com/journal/
I still use this place to keep up to date on other people (yes I still read your guys' posts! I just don't comment much, sorry)
Otherwise this page just houses my plethora of private posts (trust me, they are best kept private!) since DA has yet to provide that option...
Loves to you all.
current mood:  depressed
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| Wednesday, April 18th, 2007
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10:09 am
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you are paleturquoise
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Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well.
Your saturation level is low - You stay out of stressful situations and advise others to do the same. You may not be the go-to person when something really needs done, but you know never to blow things out of proportion.
Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.
| | the spacefem.com html color quiz |
Hmm, I guess some of its right, except maybe my outlook on life, lol...
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| Thursday, February 15th, 2007
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5:38 pm - Thank you for calling...
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So I made it through my training. I took calls today at work for the first time.
It felt weird... to say the least. Hooked up my headset, set everything up, and Auto'ed in to await some random person whom I could attempt to help. I haven't done that since NCO... so it brought back a lot of interesting memories and thoughts.
I thought I was done with Call Centers. I told myself I was, and so did my body by kicking me in the proverbial balls with a nice dose of Anxiety Issues. But I caved in and returned to the field. I'm a phone rep once again.
My calls today were alright I guess. My first call was almost 40 minutes long, but I saved a sweet little old couple from cancelling their account, by finding something better suited for them. Which was rather interesting, because what was better suited to them was something I wasn't trained in. So while attempting to figure out what the hell to do, keep my anxiety in control, and deal with a customer for the first time, I also had to scrounge around and attempt to seamlessly answer the questions they had about something I knew nothing about. In the end they were happy, so that was a relief and a half.
So this is it. I'm a Business Care Representative... chained to a desk by a headset.
current mood:  nervous
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| Friday, January 26th, 2007
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10:28 pm - Banana Juices
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Where the hell did this week go? Seriously it feels like it should be tuesday... I think I just blanked out for the past few days.
Anyways, just finished third week of training... Officially half-way through the classroom part. Though it seems to be going well so far. I'm learning things easily, and not as nervous as my previous experiences with call centers... so thats a good sign for now. I think my class is also a good help for that. We all get along really well, and have tons of amusing (and often horribly crude) conversations, that relax and cheer me up throughout the day.
In terms of company, so far I have my strange but sweet Wolfy friend from another class, and now I also found a friend in my class who I seem to get along with quite well. He's a fellow artist and gamer, so we often have rather inspiring conversations. My teacher is also a riot, he's a total science nerd who seems to have interests in a lot of the same geeky things as me and a great sense of humour, which often leads to some amusing jokes and comments in class! To say the least I'm certainly enjoying the social aspect of my job right now ^_^
We also took Mock Calls today in class... Most classes seem to take mock calls around week 4 or 5... but we started early.
Anyways, each person made up a few scenarios, then we handed them to another class, so they could call us and pretend to be customers with those issues. I never got my own scenarios, so every call was something I actually had to look into... and It seemed to go pretty well. I actually had the teacher of that class come and tell me specifically that one of her students said I was really great.
Well, I've managed some art these days, so I feel at least a bit accomplished. And now I have a whole weekend with my adorable little boy... I dont get to see him much during the week since I'm away all day, so this weekend shall be wonderful!
As for personal things... I'm feeling really foggy still... I have a lot of things on my mind. Things that really need sorting out and possibly changing. But we'll see... I have things going on around me that need more focus, so I'd rather keep my spirits up and do what I need to do, than bring myself down with thoughts of things that are yet to come.
*takes a deep breath*
current mood:  artistic
current music: Dido - Sand in my Shoes
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| Thursday, January 18th, 2007
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4:41 pm - Training and such
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An update for those interested.
Well, training takes most of my time these days, and luckily its going quite well. I adore my class, we're all a really mix-match group, and yet we seem to have all bonded fairly well... Most classes like that tend to form a few little groups, but we've all really stuck together. It's unique compared to what I'm used to... I'm not used to a class of people that all sit together and have a blast at lunch and such.
Travelling to training has taken on a new edge. No longer does it take me forever to get to work from two buses and horrible cross-over time! Now a wonderful friend from one of the other training classes, gives me a ride everyday. So my mornings and afternoons include a nice ride in one heck of a snazzy corvette, with a great friend, good music, and intriguing conversation, to say the least.
I'm trying to spend some good time with Kyler these days. Though this has been quite hard with the training taking up a good portion of my days, but I'm still doing what I can...
Victoria has proven to be a rather interesting place on many accounts... I'm enjoying it here, but I also do miss Nanaimo a lot... as crummy and small and tedious as Nanaimo is... its my home. Victoria is still simply a place of residence to me, not yet a home...
Victoria, and its people, confuse me.
current mood:  confused
current music: kids upstairs having a yelling contest
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| Friday, January 12th, 2007
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9:28 pm - People
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My mind is rather interesting when it comes to people, I'm very two sided about it (as I am with most things in my life... which I've also lately been realizing the full extent of).
I seem to either crave and love company, or want nothing more than to be alone and enjoy the peace and tranquility of solitude (at times I am a rather "Lone Cougar" you could say, lol)
My cravings are strange though. They will usually be completely random, and can be a craving to see anyone... whether its a friend, my Love, a family member, some old aquaintance, or even someone I met only once. These cravings usually last until I either see the person, or it eventually fades down (which could take anywhere from a couple hours to months). Sometimes they can be strong enough to almost drive me insane, other times they just linger in the back of my mind.
But either way I get them, and I get them strong and often... About as often and as strong as my need to be alone in fact, lol... Go figure.
Anyways... At present I have been missing the company of a silly little wolfy friend from back in Nanaimo. Someone who in very little time managed to earn my trust, help me out of a certain pit of depression (probably without knowing it), and put a smile on my face just by being them.
Know, my dear friend, that you are wonderful and missed.
current mood:  nostalgic
current music: Lifehouse - Trying
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| Monday, January 8th, 2007
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6:27 pm - Update
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I expect there probably wont be much in the way of posts here anymore...
I'll be posting lots, but mostly in private. So you might find one or two here and there for an update sometimes, but not much more than that...
Just letting you know, lack of posts doesn't mean I've died or something, lol.
current mood:  tired
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| Sunday, January 7th, 2007
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10:08 am - Beware the Basement Swamp
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Ugh, curse these rains!
So far this basement has flooded twice now with all this rain. It's soaked under our walls and the first time it flooded our bathroom, hallway, and a bit of the bedroom... It took hours of mopping with towels (very tedious, since it means constantly wringing them out in the sink) before we finally soaked up most of the water, and then we noticed that it was a constant stream. Moments after we would dry up the floor, it would be flooded again.
This time was worse. We woke up this morning to our bathroom, both hallways, most of the bedroom, and the entire kitchen completely swamped. All the carpets are soaked, and will have to be professionally cleaned now before they start to mold. We have to walk everywhere in shoes or boots, with our pant legs rolled up. My son looks rather cute, he's wandering around the house in his little rain boots with his full rain suit on!
Luckily I got out here in time just before the water soaked through the carpet to the computer. So I kneeled in squelchy, cold carpet under the desk, while I set up a little stand for the powerbar and strapped all the wires to it so they're all safe.
*pant pant pant*
Oh, and I start training tomorrow at 8 am.
current mood:  annoyed
current music: Loud children's toys behind me
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| Thursday, January 4th, 2007
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9:12 pm - A New Start
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Well, it's finally 2007...
To say the least 2006 was a rather interesting year... I've definately had worse, which I could rattle off like the alphabet, though I've also had much better.
Pain, Love, Confusion, Moving, Jobs, Unemployment, Injuries, Illnesses, Surgery, Money, Friends, Hatred, Family, Debts, Separation, Adventures, Memories, Revelations, Hopelessness, Depression, Happiness... Yup, 2006 had it all...
I couldn't seem to hold a job. Whether it was my anxiety at NCO, Tonsilitis with Superstore, Finger Injury at The Keg, or Lack of hours resulting in me having to move at Movie Gallery... It just was not a working year for me. The same goes for my health really, but most of that had my tonsils to blame, which luckily are over and done with.
Now with luck, some patience, and a whole lot of effort, hopefully this year will really pick up. I'm sick of my anxiety ruling my life, I'm sick of my depression, and I'm sick of things never working out. So I started this year with a bang, and I intend to keep it that way.
Even the beginning of the year seemed to be a good start. Days before News Years I was panicing... I had my son for the weekend, and literally no where to stay, since my mother-in-law went on a trip and forgot to leave me keys, My sister backed out of our weekend plans out of the blue, Fallen was busy, and I really didn't want to bring my son to my house, since people were sick, and the place really isn't child-safe with assorted weapons and electronics laying around... Well, I was about to bring him home anyways because of lack of options, but Fallen wouldn't let me though, he backed out of his plans and refused to let me go home. So in the end I got to spend New Years with my son and my Love. An option that turned out to be absolutely wonderful (I'm a huge fan of the New Years Kiss tradition.) Though I still felt really bad for Fallen's friend... But my complaining wouldn't stop Fallen, so all I can do is hope his friend was alright *sighs*
Anyways, since that time, I spent a few good days in Nanaimo... Got errands done I was putting off for way too long. Received good news about my finger. Speaking of which, I can start to take my splint off now, seems its healed really well so it can come off early! But this will be gradual over the next month. Anyways, I got to spend a bit of time with my roomies, and had some good DDR sessions! I'm getting better! It makes me feel good about myself, since my stamina is increasing.
Now, today I finally up and moved to Victoria! Packed my stuff, got in the car, and now I'm here at my mother-in-laws, for a little while until I can manage my own place. I also got a job! Now, it's at West (the call center), but I'm still happy to have full time work, at a nice place (West makes NCO really show just how much of a hell hole it is), and hopefully it will go well... Though I'm a little worried about my anxiety issues when I'm back on the phones. But I'm going to lift my chin up, and try my best. I'm determined to give it a shoot, since I'd much rather NOT be terrified to talk on phones for the rest of my life... So maybe this time around I can beat it... If not, then the 8 weeks of paid training will have definately helped anyways.
Soon Fallen will be moving to Victoria, once I find us a place and get settled. I really can't wait. I'll have a job, my beautiful son, and my wonderful Love, who has been absolutely amazing, loving, and supportive of me lately.
Here's to 2007 *raises a glass*
current mood:  optimistic
current music: Assorted "In The Groove 2" music
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| Tuesday, December 5th, 2006
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10:07 am - In my Footsteps
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We all choose the paths we take in life
Some take a path of responsibility
Others take a path of carefree joy
But whatever our choice
It's still our path, and ours alone
Sometimes our paths work together
Or they may overlap, or intertwine
Or follow faithfully at the heels of another's path
Sometimes we love these connections
And other times they burn us
I used to choose my path however I saw fit
Whether carefree or responsible
The choice was mine to make
But now my path is different
For another has altered my choices
No longer do I walk my path alone
Careless about taking a bad twist or turn
Now I must be careful and safe
For in my footsteps walks another
A pair of little feet that follow
I must look after these feet
Take them on a safe path
Protect them, teach them, love them
Watch over them until the time comes
When they feel ready to choose their own path
Some are hurt by the path I must take
Some feel ignored, forgotten, rejected, or left behind
But still I must take my path
Not for myself, not for those around me
But for the little feet that follow...
~Tassy
I'm not a writer, and I won't pretend to be. I know my writing sucks.
I wrote this simply because its been nagging at the back of my mind for a long time now... and finally it couldn't take it anymore and started screaming at me till I sat down and wrote it. It needed to be said, so finally it has... I drew a picture to go along with this, but it's still in the process of being worked on.
current mood:  contemplative
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| Friday, December 1st, 2006
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3:28 pm - Percocet and Soup
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It's been an interesting few days since I last posted.
I'm feeling better now, still in pain, but it's a lot more manageable, and I'm actually starting to eat now! I can thank my new pain killers for that... On tuesday I finally cracked from the pain, and called the doctors office for advice. They informed me I needed to start taking stronger pain killers, because I wasn't eating, and was barely drinking... and if I kept that up I'd be in the hospital in no time. So I went and picked up a prescription for Percocet.
The first time taking them was rather interesting, because I had to be "babysat". There was a high chance I would be allergic to these ones, but they wanted to try anyways. If I was allergic it would result in me blacking out and need to go to the emergency room, so I wasn't allowed to be alone for the first 6 hours. Luckily my roomates were home, and then Normand came over to spend some time with me. Such a sweet guy, he kept me company, we watched Mirrormask, and he even went to sevvy to pick up a can of soup for me! I really appreciate what he did, he's a wonderful guy.
Well the pain killers were fine, no allergic reactions as far as I can tell, so I'm supposed to stay on these until they run out, which I think is another week from now. They are rather interesting though, shortly after I take them I feel rather drugged, and that lasts for an hour or two usually. I get rather dizzy, and lightheaded... and my mind gets foggy. Sometimes when they hit me really hard, I even start to see tracers! It's really weird, but it amuses me. Always fun when I can actually get amusement out of something the doctor insisted I take. The only downside so far is that they make me really nauseous sometimes... to the point where I have to lay down and can't move at all or I will throw up. I also got really dizzy to the point of it being almost scary. Last night everything started to fade out while I was making soup, and I nerely passed out right there in the kitchen! Seems to only be bad when I'm on my feet though...
Oh, I got to go see Clinton on wednesday night! I've been really missing him, and I found out he was in Nanaimo for two hours downtown, it was a stopover from the greyhound trip he was on. So I walked down there (through the intense snow!) and visited him. He's lucky I consider him worth it, or I never would've gone down there... it was practically a suicide mission with how sick I am, and how much the cold air hurts my throat.
I miss Fallen... so very much... It's been a week since I've seen him (yes, I suck that much... its only a week and its torturing me)... I really hope he's feeling better tomorrow. As soon as he thinks he's ok enough (he's sick, and its contagious), I'll be hopping on the bus and zipping down there to be with him immediately!
*scarfs down soup* I love the Tassy soup! Mushroom soup with broken up Mr. Noodles cooked in it. One of my favourite soups to make ever since I discovered it when I was little. Also its nice and easy to swallow, so I'm in heaven!
current mood: amused
current music: Phantom of the Opera - Music of the Night
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| Sunday, November 26th, 2006
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4:39 pm - Snow...
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Gah!!!
Go figure that it decides to snow a couple days After I have my tonsils removed!
This blows, I love snow! I want nothing more than to go romp around outside in its crunchy white goodness! But no... for the next week and a half I'm stuck indoors, not allowed to do much... Bah!
This either wont stick around until I'm better, or if by chance it does, it will be really gross by then... So my only hope is that sometime in two weeks or more, it decides to whole-heartedly snow again! At which point I shall joyeously be outside enjoying myself!
Which means, prepare yourself Fallen, for you will be adventuring with me through the snow when that time comes *evil laugh*
On another note... I huuuuurt... and my voice sounds really weird...
current mood:  irritated
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| Saturday, November 25th, 2006
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2:11 pm - Tonsils
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Well, my tonsils are finally out. It's been two days so far, since they were taken out thursday morning.
current mood:  sick
current music: Kid Whatever - Wake Up
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| Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006
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3:36 pm - Enlightened
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Made some realizations, about myself, about life, etc... I tend to get these on and off a fair bit, but this was one more refreshing than usual. A fresh splash of water to the face after a hard workout. It made me open my eyes just a little bit more.
Nothing major of course, just little things that are only significant inside my own mind.
As it is, its nothing all that tangible either... They're things I couldn't put into words if I had to, yet they make sense to me. Simply visual, and emotional.
current mood: optimistic
current music: Roomate's music on shuffle
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